Sunday, October 26, 2014
Oh, Autumn! Season of sweaters and woodsmoke, of fresh school supplies, of deciduous trees flaming out in a last burst of color. You've long been my favorite time of year.
But there's a moment when the first cold October rain washes all your gorgeous watercolor from the trees, a moment when I can't help but feel a bit mournful.
Something in the air reminds me of the early November evening when my father received the diagnosis of the cancer that would take him from us in mere weeks. And that same late autumn tang was in the air when I took Ophelia, my noble yellow lab, on her last walk, just before I brought her to the vet to be put down.
These things aren't autumn's fault.
Still, there's something about late autumn itself--its very essence--that forces us, in the words of Elizabeth Bishop, to "practice losing farther, losing faster."
I can't help but take October personally. And it seems no accident that the month culminates with All Hallows' Eve/Halloween/the Day of the Dead, when the living commune with their dead, plying them with pan de muerto, sweets, and flowers.
|photo lifted from Transitions Abroad|
A few Octobers ago, I wrote this poem about the bittersweetness of this time of year:
Like refugees, they ran off empty handed,
forsaking heirloom china, cutlery,
leaving behind their hands, their tongues and teeth.
The dead eat only our intentions.
Still we heat the oven, flour our hands.
Into foods they used to crave
we melt too much butter.
We gladly burn our fingers on the skillet.
Hungry? The dead are nothing but hunger
For our sake, they swarm like bees
to sugar skulls and scattered marigolds,
mezcal bottles, glossy loaves of bread,
their own best photos framed in gold,
their graves tidied of weeds. Lured by the lauds
we offer for their safe arrival,
the dead are not Catrinas
gussied in tophats and feathered boas
pipecleaner fingers bent to hold
the stems of red roses,
but they forgive such insults. The dead
draw near us but can only get so close,
like dogs in winter pressed for warmth
to the wrong side of the wall.
|Frida Kahlo Catrina found here|
Monday, October 20, 2014
|Image lifted from The Homeless Finch|
Sometimes the shortest pieces can be the hardest to write. There were so many things I wanted to say about Bob's manuscript. Those three sentences took me hours to get right, and I'd still be struggling over them if I hadn't forced myself to stop and hit send.
The book is due out in late 2014 from Full Court Press. In the meantime, here's one of my favorites from among an assortment of gems, first published in the journal Decanto.
Vestis virum reddit.
There are holes in even my fanciest clothes
from frequent disputations with the earth.
Gracelessness has cultivated a long acquaintance
with stones, with grass.
And how can I hope to mend them
with hands as unsteady as these?
As well try threading starlight
through the eye of the risen moon.
Nights, warp and woof give way
like a dead language unraveling;
even so splendid a costume as memory
begins to fray—
style and cut decades out of date:
the fabric, dimmed by deepest solitude,
gnawed by insectile swarms of regret,
and every tear, a tear.
|Lifted from Spirit Cloth|
Though I was a mere undergraduate, Bob
Sunday, October 19, 2014
|Postcards and lattes and Sharpies: Oh My!|
|Neither wind nor rain nor gloom of night will stay this booksigner from her appointed BAM!|
Thanks to all the Books-a-Million stores that hosted me, and to all the lovely people who dropped by to say hello. I've enjoyed spending time with you all.
Wednesday, October 15, 2014
|At the Emlen Physick Estate and Museum|
Before I became obsessed with Stars Hollow, I was in love with Cicely, Alaska, the equally fictional, equally charming setting of Northern Exposure.
This weekend our search brought us to Cape May on the southmost tip of New Jersey. With its colorfully painted Victorian homes and its pretty beaches, Cape May is a popular summer shore destination for Philadelphians.
Last weekend, most of the town's restaurants and hotels were preparing to shut down for the season. The streets were quiet, and we found ourselves surrounded by mostly locals, battening down the hatches for the long sleepy winter.
Homey and picturesque, with plenty of great places to eat and shop, Cape May is a little gem of a town.
Too bad it's not quite in commuting distance!
Friday, October 10, 2014
|From New Hope to Lambertville|
Tomorrow, in the immortal words of Tom Waits as performed by Bruce Springsteen, I'm going to "take that ride/across the river to the Jersey side."
From three to six, I'll be signing copies of my novels Catherine and Jane at Books-a-Million in Mays Landing.
The forecast calls for rain--perfect bookstore weather. So if you're a South Jersey girl or guy, please put on your coziest sweater, grab a pumpkin spice latte, and drop in for a little snug indoors October bookstore cheer.
Thursday, October 9, 2014
But Nico's the poofy kind. When we first met him, he was all matted and tangled from his days on the mean streets of Conshohocken, Pennsylvania. The Montgomery County SPCA shaved away the worst tangles before they handed him over, but three months later, he was a little black cumulous cloud of curls.
Lather, rinse, shave...then repeat. Every three months.
Two days ago, Nico visited the groomer's, where he was de-fluffed and pampered:
He came home sleek, neat, and smelling like a daisy. Lovely, right?
Which doesn't mean he won't try again. The world's a mighty tempting place.
To guard against future escape attempts, the gap in the fence has since been boarded over. We've been scouting out other possible escape routes, hoping to stay one step ahead of trouble.
Would somebody please remind Nico that he's got it pretty good here?
|Sleeko the Mischievous rests after his big adventure|
Tuesday, October 7, 2014
Busy. Crazy. Why don't we hyphenate the two? Busy-Crazy. That's how things get this time of the year when you're a teacher. The freshman papers roll in thick and fast, as do the meetings and the student conferences.
Add in some book signings and readings in far-flung locales:
|The calm before the storm|
They're an awful lot of fun. And they're an excuse not to clean my house....which is a good thing. Until the dust bunnies rise up and take over.
|Recycled Art Dust Bunnies by Suzanne Proulx|
I'm okay with not cleaning. I can live with those life-sized dust bunnies. What's hard is the other thing I'm not getting done: writing.
A writer who isn't writing tends to get cranky or downright depressed, and I'm no exception. Stray ideas for the book I'm theoretically working on--the one I've been working on more theoretically than actually for months now--ping around in my head at inopportune times. I list them in Word documents about which I promptly forget.
As the weeks wear on, I start to have more ideas for books and random writing projects, and before long I'm filled with doubt. Should I abandon project A and start project B? Or should I be not-writing them both simultaneously?
Meanwhile the achingly beautiful fall days tick by and November approaches, bringing with it NaNoWriMo, that time of year when people challenge each other to draft that novel they've long been intending to write in thirty-one frenzied days.
Maybe we could all just agree to move NaNoWriMo to June this year?
To those intrepid souls who have done NaNoWriMo: Did you walk away from November with a workable rough draft, or was one month not enough time? How did you manage to fit all that writing around your daily life? And exactly how much coffee did you have to drink to make it happen?